ink, sweat + cityscapes

these lyrics are from the antlers, from one of my favorite songs ever called “kettering.” i’m sure they’re talking about a girl. but they always make me think about the first time i met Christ on my knees, and how every time feels like the first time - because every time, i know him better than i did before. every time i meet with Christ, i think “did i even ONCE understand the Gospel before?” because it gets more worthy and i get less deserving each time i think about it.

the day i got baptized, my dad told me that it was the most important day of my life. more important than any graduation. more important than the birth of my first kid. more important than the day i made a down payment on my first house. more important than my wedding day. of course that’s true. the day i got baptized was the day i declared: “i submit to you of first importance what i also received, that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that He was buried, and that He rose again on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures.”

i wish that i had known in that first minute we met the unpayable debt that i’d owe Him, that i already owed Him the day He carried the Cross up that hill, that i have owed and will owe Him for eternity.